New York Mormon

My name is Susan Fowler and I guess you could say I'm a New York Mormon.

I've always considered myself blessed because I have always known that there was a loving God and with that knowledge came also the sure feeling that there must be a path, a way that was planned for me to know this God.

I spent most of my life as a seeker. I wanted to find that path.

As a child I was brought up by my mother to be a member of a certain church. I followed that teaching although I knew in my heart it was not the right one. When I was old enough to make my own decisions I left that church and set out on my quest.

It was a journey of many years that led my through the full spectrum of religious beliefs and value systems. I usually tell people that I have "auditioned" as many churches, ashrams, synagogues, mosques and temples as I could find. I have been methodized and calvinated. I have danced with the krishnas and chanted with the buddhists. I have quaked and shaked but drew the line at donning a veil.

In all those many trials and errors I never felt that I had found my God. I NEVER felt the desire to join these groups; I never felt the Spirit.

I guess the New York part of me required that I keep going and trying to see for myself; and to reserve commitment until I had found the absolute truth.

I KNEW that the path was there somewhere and it was my desire, my duty to myself and my God to find it.

AND I DID. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.

I love my CTR ring because it is symbol of my quest and the great reward that Heavenly Father has given me.

Susan Fowler

New York, NY